Or, as it seems to me…
It is the middle of August; you can almost touch the end of summer, a summer that has been delightful, warm but not hot, humidity low, an unusual Eastern summer. Because of a break in my schedule, I have retreated to the cottage for a few days. Waking this morning, the day had broken grey again, cool, almost chill, a day requiring a sweatshirt with the temptation of starting a fire in the wood stove to charm away the cool.
It is almost too chill for the shorts I’m wearing. And, after a little soul searching,I did decide to light a fire to charm away the cool.
This afternoon’s chore is to sort through a bunch of old papers, letters that I think date back to my college days that have somehow managed to follow me through all these years in an old wicker basket taken from the basement of my mother’s house in south Minneapolis.
It feels like a good time to cast off those memories. I have been getting my house in order; no one lives forever and I would like to not leave behind a mess. Not that I have any plans in going anywhere for awhile but we are all mortal and I’ve been feeling the winds of mortality at my back.
My good friend Tim Sparke, younger than me, is waging war with the cancers in his body, defying medical odds and doctor’s prognostications, continuing to live after a being given a six month horizon some two years ago. I received an email from him this weekend that chronicled his battles, the victories and defeats, the advances and the retreats of the long campaign since last we had communicated six months ago.
These are days of reflection, underscored and punctuated by the reality of Tim’s illness, a personal touching of mortality on my life while the whole world, it seems, ponders the seeming incomprehensibilty of Robin Williams’ death, a passing which has cast an unexpectedly large shadow over our lives.
It seemed he had always been there in the background of our lives, a manic, whirling dervish of a thousand characters that punctuated our lives. From Mork & Mindy to The Birdcage to Good Will Hunting to A Night at the Museum, he was part of the fabric of our cultural life. And he will be missed.


Letter From New York August 16, 2014
August 16, 2014Sitting snuggled in the cottage, the weather reports inform us that we are about fifteen degrees cooler than normal this year, a situation not many are regretting. It feels a bit like early fall, a feeling coming a bit too early for me. I stopped today to buy some wine for the cottage and all of us at the wine store agreed it was too early to be thinking of fall. I will be thinking summer until it is officially fall – only then will I surrender this glorious summer to the past.
This weekend I am babysitting Marcel, a fourteen year old miniature poodle, who has claimed the settee in the entry way as “Marcel Land” and from their reigns over my household while his real humans, Lionel and Pierre, are away in Atlantic City for a work related weekend of frivolity. In their absence, I am watching over this very fussy animal, who refuses dog food and waits to be delighted by a variety of human foods. Last night I won him over with honey ham, sprinkled with cheese. I tried that again this morning; he was having none of it. So I went to the local deli and got him chicken, which has pleased him today.
At fourteen, he feels he has earned the right to be picky and all of us around him attempt to indulge that pickiness. He is, after all, fourteen which translates to something like 98 in dog years. He’s pretty spry for 98. We went for a half hour walk this morning, exploring my yard then walking across the street to his yard, where we spent some time. Today he did not go to the front door and look at it longingly, as if to say: why am I not going in to my own house? He came quietly back with me today, tacitly acknowledging that my home was his home for right now.
Not really a dog person, I did understand this morning walking Marcel why a morning dog walk can be good for a human too. It gave me some minutes to clear my head and to focus on something other than my own concerns. I was attentive to Marcel, to another living being, while I gathered my morning wits about me, sipping my first cup of coffee as we walked our immediate neighborhood.
Work life is quieting down, time is being given me for reflection, a slowing down of everything, so that I can gather myself together to face the next flurry of activity which will eventually come. This time is, I suspect, a bit like taking a long dog walk.
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